Last night I worked late at our office training our new book keeper (who just happens be be a dear friend of mine). Before I left, I made a casserole for Clay and the kids, gave Zoe orders of when to put it in and rushed off. I returend a couple hours later to a sink full of dirty dishes.
I felt my mood start to shift. I began to feel a little abused, taken advantage of. I very easily could have thrown a fit, but instead, I picked up my scrubber, turned on the warm water and got to work. Right then, God gave me this thought: My life does not belong to me, it belongs to Him. Everything I do, should glorify Him. I don't deserve to come home and kick my feet up and turn on the T.V. I don't deserve "me" time, even though in today's society I am told I do. I am blessed. I am not working for rewards. I am working because I already have the reward.
Don't misunderstand me. I do think the dishes should have done before I got home. I do think everyone in a family needs to contribute. On this particular night, they didn't. Do they sometimes? Yes, they do often.
Later, my sweet husband suprised me with an anniversary gift. (Yes, we got married on Valentine's.) He presented me with a beautiful, rustic, necklace and ring. For the first time ever, I did not have a gift for him. The adoption is consuming my time and concentration, and thankfully, he understands this. He was not angry or upset one bit. As he was putting my necklace on me, I thanked God. I thanked Him for helping me to not ruin the evening by throwing a fit about a sink full of dishes. My husband had planned this sweet little moment, and my tantrum could have easily prevented it.
My life does not belong to me, it belongs to Him. I am so grateful He is taking me on such a magnificent journey.
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12 Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.